I am still in a crappy situation, but it's looking better(?)
I do actually have time to write a journal now! this is the longets ive been on a computer in like two/three weeks i think
I've moved back in with my grandmother, I haven't lived here since I was 12.
This would be a good thing if she didn't live two hours away from my friends/loved ones, support group, college, and job.
Yes, I already have a job. I had one before the crisis, but I hadn't been working enough yet to be paid. And I left too soon to be paid as well. it's a maid cafe and im a butler, we worked one place so far as a test run (volunteering) and then i had to leave (why do people assume things about me?)
Anyways, my manager, Marceline, is understanding and willing to let me keep my job if I find a way back up there, which, you guessed it, I will need money for.
I won't ask for donations anymore, this I'll have to do on my own. I'll raise money and make my way back up to Fresno and resume my college career.
Living with my grandmother is not an option, for one she lives in Stockton (if you look up why stockton is bad, you'll understand), I have no friends here and I don't plan on making any(not because I'm stubborn, I just don't get out of the house often), I do have like two people I know and I'll hang with them I suppose. I had to say goodbye to my best friend, sobbing in my empty garage, it was so hard. I just want to go back.
I'll probably start working at a fast food place or a walmart or something down here until I make enough money for rent somewhere.
Hopefully by the end of this summer I can go home.
Again, thank you guys so much for donating, my dad has been in tears almost every day since the attack. I told him about you guys and he kept saying you guys were so kind and that he appreciated you guys so much. And yes, it was real and did actually happen, I seriously can't believe some people think I'm lying. Some people just have bad luck, and ours is my step mother.
We're waiting to go to court, depending on the outcome either Julia or my dad will go to jail. The baby (my sister, 2 years old) will hopefully go to my dad if we actually get the court to believe the truth. But my step mother punched herself in the face (yes, again) and gave herself two black eyes???
i dont really want to get into it because its stressful, but we've been collecting evidence over the past two weeks of her abuse towards both of us and how well my dad has been taking care of my sister (since he's been the primary, and she knows that)
I've been spending the donated money mostly on clothes and rides around Fresno before I left. I got to say goodbye to my best friend, and I got to attend my support group and the pride parade before I had to leave. I bought food here and there, and oh no I bought some cheap adoptables to help myself feel better. Some of the money in my paypal was mine to begin with, like 40 dollars of it, I had some money leftover so I tried to make myself happy after I made sure I didn't need it at that moment. And I still have maybe 60 dollars left over, which will be saved for my future rent.
I am sorry if some people thought I was misusing the money donated to me, I already put 200$ away to save for a laptop when I move back to Fresno, that's my first step (since I already need it for college)
And with my commissions I will definitely save the money from those in the future
And I'm sorry my adoptables aren't good, I'll try harder. I didn't know you guys didn't like them?? i dont post adoptables unless i would adopt them myself
TL;DR thank you so much for donating, I'm in a safer spot now, but I still have a long ways to go before im happy again
To those anons on thiscrush, I apologize. I know you guys are upset with me, and I don't know how to make it up to you.
ALSO!
if you donated, screenshot it and send me it with a ref of a (maybe simple?) oc I can sketch for you, if you'd like. im sorry you guys feel underappreciated
